I finally thought, with these ear plugs, that if I go lie in bed, maybe I'll not hear her.(I'm farther away) I crawled into bed and buried my head in the pillow when Barry put his hand on my back. I lost it. I broke, started crying. Luckily, shortly after I started talkinig to barry about it, she fell asleep. It was about 1:30. We (Barry and I) woke up shortly before 8:30 thinking that we should wake her up when she started waking up.
I was happy to see when I walked in her room and she was smiling. She still loves me... that's good. :)