Well, here I am, 3 days from our due date, and I have not felt ONE contraction. I was in such a funk for the last week because i was CERTAIN she would come early. So on Monday I put Alexa in Uterine Time Out. I decided I wasn't going to talk too much about it and told my family not to ask me how i'm feeling anymore (as they had been like every 5 minutes). Tuesday was a much better day and I actually felt good walking around. Today is still in question.
If you don't follow me on facebook, at my last appointment I was 70% effaced but 0cm dialated. My next appointment is friday and because my doctor isn't an OB, he typically doesn't check for dilation. I'm juggling with making him check me or just letting it go. I don't want him to go through with it to just learn that nothing's changed. My family, of course, wants to know what's up, and if I have progressed it would be a nice confidence boost.
I find it interesting that my pregnancy is so different from my mom's and Denise's. Both of them had early babies that were small. At my last ultrasound, around 35 or 36 weeks, Alexa was already 6lb 6 oz and had a melon head. Now that I'm going to full term (or beyond!) I'm nervous that I won't be able to do a natrual birth under the squat bar like i'd hoped. Even my doctor, who had been saying that my hips could handle a big baby, was reasurring me last appointment that there are great OBs on hand in case of a C-section. I know i shouldn't feel inadequate, but I fear I will if it doesn't go a certain way. (She's already not behaving how i'd like her too!) I know she will come on her time.. but i feel like i'm going to be pregnant for the rest of my life! (And I'd really like a beer, please!!)